2015 is here, and I feel like I should mention what I learned and what the best of 2014 was. To be honest, 2014 wasn't like I had planned. Actually, it was quite the opposite. I won't over share, but what I did learn the past year is that I have to let go of "my plans" and rely on God fully and his perfect timing. Not sure what I was thinking when I so called planned my 2014. I ended up in sheer disappointment and frustration most of the year, and it was my own fault I was stuck in this pickle. But I spoke to someone about my expectations and how they were not turning out. They simply asked me, "have you been praying about it?"And I thought, "of course I've been praying!" But I was totally praying for it all wrong. That night I changed the way I prayed. And just like that, December came and it felt like it all clicked. Yup, it took me 12 months to learn something so valuable. Most of the year I cried and stayed up wondering why but instead, in December, I thought, "God, you know your plans for me and I trust you. Because you know more than I do, and thank goodness for that!" I felt calm, and as if a weight had come off my shoulders.
What I want for 2015 is to fully rely on God and his plans for me. I don't know why it's so hard for us to let go of the control. It's like we forget how big our God is. We definitely limit God's blessings on us by being so stubborn.
But when I look back at 2014, it was quite good. Actually, it was great. I had been focusing what I didn't get that year instead of all the blessing I had. We had a big year. Ralph and I went on a long trip to Italy this year. We had a lot of fun and spent a great time together. We bought a second house as an income property(and rented it the 4 days after it was advertised) HUGE blessing! I got to travel again for work to the Caribbean with The Girls With Glasses and went on my first cruise too. I had a healthy year, and had great times with my family and friends. Honestly, I don't know what was up with me. But I had a great year, I just wasn't seeing it.
My lesson for 2014 came to me a month before 2015. That's the way it goes. And I'm okay with that. I hope you all have a good 2015. We all could use a little refocusing for the new year, I sure could. More on others, and less on myself. Happy New Year, friends.