Tuesday, June 13, 2017

well...hello

Yes, it is me. Where have I been? I'm not really sure. My life has been busy with an almost 20 month old baby, Jonah. (is he a toddler now?) The blog has been in the very back burner. I have meant to write a lot. You should see my drafts portion. Lots of unfinished content. But on a positive note, I did mention last I had a YouTube page, Cilla & Vanilla, which is still going on. That also has been taking some of my time. And on a shocking note, (more shocking for me) I have also been on a personal baking fast. I will get to that later. And as for my home...we just turned 5 years since we bought it! I also think that deserves it's own posts with house updates.


Anyhow, this post is meant as a catch up on my life. Motherhood has been good to me. A few battle scars, but I'm surviving and learning a ton. It has been the most selfless thing I've ever done and most rewarding. Some days (most days) I'm very tired, but we keep ourselves busy. Things only grab Jonah's attention for 5 minutes...if that. He is my little buddy who does EVERYTHING with me. And by everything, I mean hangs out in the bathroom with me while I pee because privacy is not a thing here. He's in my personal space all day long. But the way he loves me like there is no one better in the world is so magical. The way he looks at me, the way my hugs I make him feel safe is indescribable. I wouldn't have it any other way.

My house looks kind of crazy on most days. Probably why my house posts have been lacking. But we are working on a system to keep things feeling a little organized. Even if it's just a room at a time. Not trying to have my house looking picture perfect, but at least having the dishes in the sink cleaned. We haven't done major renovations lately. We did fix our porch and got new windows, but the change isn't too drastic. I have rearranged a lot and I feel like my style slowly changes. But I will just post those pictures on my house update.

As for my baking fast, that was a little new for me. I have been feeling overwhelmed with people constantly asking for cakes and such. It's so very flattering, and I very much appreciate it. But I think people(including myself) forget that I am not a bakery. I literally make cakes in my kitchen as a hobby and try to make them during Jonah's nap time or bed time. It started to become way too much, and I was spending less time with the hubby or it was becoming hard to do things on the weekends as a family. If this were my business, then I would totally understand that this is what I signed up for. But I was driving myself mad by simply accepting cake request that I could simply just say I could not. And I was losing control of my house too. It was looking so crazy because my free time went to cake making. So I just had to stop a little and make them for my family like I did when I first stared. It became really fun again. I will still keep making them for my youtube page because to me, there's no pressure there. Just needed a tiny breather.

I also think I will start posting at least once a week like I did at some point. We'll see how that goes. I'm turning 30 in a month and I have a lot of goals for year 30. I'm hoping to reach them. I guess I like posting it on here to keep myself accountable. Anyhow, that's what's been going on in a nutshell. I'll fill in the blanks with more posts!


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